Sibuk dan Futur ?

Weehoo so yeahh dah lama tak update ini blog disebakan kekurangan idea dan tiada masa yang lapang untuk update pos baru . Jadi sekaranglah masa yang sesuai sementara menunggu baju siap dibasuh haha

Hm, yup memang sangat sibuk lately ni sampai kesihatan dan makanan tak terjaga. Aku tak tahulah aku amik course apa ni sampai tak tido malam dah terbalik dunia aku. Mehh diri sendiri punya hal laa tak reti manage masa & buat kerja last minute mana taknya muahaha.Hm sepanjang kesibukan ini sempat jugak aku berasa sangat serabut...senang citer rasa hilang diri sendiri tak tahu ke mana arah tuju.I've been looking for the reasons why im being liddat all of a sudden. Sumpah sangat rasa nak nangis stress rasa nak pergi jauh padahal tu bukan penyelesaiannya. Setahu aku tak pernah laa aku serabut sampai macamtu sekali.And what make it worst is i kept it to myself. Not telling akak or usrahmate abt it . Aku jadi macam malas sampai nak tinggalkan tanggung jawab yang ada. Nak shortcut laa konon taknak terikat dengan apa2 tanggungjawab eceh ayat haha. Ujian demi ujian mendatang aku jadi makin lemah padahal aku yang minta untuk kuat . Nak kuat mmg melalui ujian laa kan ? tapi aku alpa mudah sangat melatah terus rasa lemah serabut .

Tapi alhamdulillah , satu hari tu after i've ruined  each of my day before the day i return to  myself back macam biasalah ada sesi luahan perasaaan yang terbuku di hati dengan housemate yg merangkap usrahmate & my backpacker buddies  eceh & yes dari situ aku tahu...aku futur. Futur ? meh bukan sarapan in arabic ye tahu futur dalam bahasa arab sarapan tapi ni dalam makna yang lain iaitu gugur. Kira jadi mcm iman makin berkurang dan tanpa sedar kita rasa malas nak buat semua benda nak teruskan segala apa yang kita kerjakan segala apa yang kita usahakan untuk ke arahNya . Gahh sumpah that the worst feeling ever & i dont wanna be in it no more. Seksa perit.

Kiranya bila kita dah lupa dah lalai asyik ingatkan dunia tapi masa untuk Dia kita bagi sisa je, itulah balasannya. Setiap nikmat, masa, ujian tu semua diberi memang bersebab. Nikmat pun ujian. Jadi walau apa pun kita dapat cuba & pastikan kita bersyukur & redha. bukan mengeluh give up & salahkan Dia. Pedoman untuk diri aku laa ni takmau jatuh dalam futur lagi. Menakutkan.

Okay i guess thats it takde benda dah haha. Till then Assalamualaikum :)

New.

Yesterday , I did plan something crazy & out of my mind .  Without any hesitation at all , I told Fatin to pick her up at Melaka haha . Idk why all of sudden I would think to plan unexpected thing like that haha . Well, i'm just being myself. Unpredictable Farahin Natasha  :) . Hm I guess at that time I was wondering to face the memories & places where I've ever went with him . I have to face it instead of running away coz yes for sure it will chase u back & u will fall down get hurt all over again . Memories & past are the scariest things for me right now. Been there for more than a month still can't get over it T.T . It tortures me & yeahh kill me slowly. I cant't even control my emotional , my mind & myself . I feel like I'm gonna turn out as an insane freaky girl gahhhh. I'm almost give up, everyday everynight. Pathetic? yes I am. I can't deny it, I lose my weight banyak gila coz idk where my appetite gone to. I'm become weak when it comes to lose someone who i love so much . But then I realize...till when I have to live in fear, in pain and crying all day all night over the same things .And in my previous post pun has open up my eyes about the TEST that I haven't pass for so long. Asyik repest test je huwaaaa. I have to make a change right? alot of changes to be exact. I must find a thousand ways to fix my life. fix myself .Just leave it to Allah. Keep on dua' & have faith in Him. If it is meant to be , it will be . If we really meant to be together, sure will be & hopefully together in a better way , Amiinnn inshaAllah :). Always pray for that...

 So ehem, step 1 : face the memories & create a new one. 

Yup memories never fade & I won't forget the old ones tho :) just yeahh make a new memory at the same place would be interesting aite ? To make it becomes much sweeter & less hurt? hehe. well,  I called this mission as a rebound farahinization :p lulz.

Nawwhhh stop with all those summertime sadness . Let's move on to Farahin & friends roadtrip : Farawrhin,Beng,Fatin & Wak Take Over Melaka :D. Yeah apparently as i said before memang the main objective*ecewah* just to pick Fatin straight away go back to Bangi no singgah somewhere else . But unfortunately , we just can plan & Allah yang tentukan . Yes, He gives us a better plan tho entah mcm mana we have alot of time to chill out at Pantai Klebang wiwiwiwi. I've been dreaming to go there since forever kot! so yeahh Alhamdulillah I've got the chance to go there with my friends hihi. Macam orang lain jugak, we all had a  #foodhunting session laa jugakk duhhh. The food at there was hmm yeahh not bad boleh laa nak isi perut & make ur tummy happy. Aiskrim pasu dia memang ZE BEST! umangggaaaaii sangat sodap ! No regret seriously. satisfaction level 999++ .Okaylah, to make it short & kurang hambar I will share a few photos hmm coz it would be much interesting kot for u guys menjiwai our roadtrip hahaha. So here we go !

K I know tak enjoy pun sebab gambaq kami jaaa hahaha :p. Well I better stop here then hee . pray the best for us , for me &for all our muslim sisters & brothers out there . Semoga kita dapat bahagia yang diberkati dariNYA. Spread the love <3 & we all already know love can be define in so many ways - choose the right one to give then :) . Assalamualaikum.

Ujian

Nak tahu apa aku rasa ? SENTAP. In a good way laa. Terjawab soalan aku selama ini . Soalan apakah?

Soalan :
1) Why always me , a girl who has to face the same thing all over again ?
2) Why always me , a girl who get dumped with a same reason " I want to be a better one so i have to leave you"
3)Why always ALLAH gives me this kind of test ? Tahu kan aku susah nak move on ?
4) Kenapa temukan aku dengan mereka tapi akhirnya dipisahkan jugak ?
5) Kenapa pisahkan aku dengan mereka bila kau dah mula percaya & dah sayang gilaaaa ?


Now i know what I suppose to do is...to pass the test! YES PASS THE TEST! Enough said.

Terima kasih Allah . Untuk segalanya .

Assalamualaikum.

Hola :D

Hai awaks awaks hahaa k tak lawak . Yeahh lamanyewww tak update hee. haritu nak update kat lab computer tapi tak sempat hmm . Haa btw ualls I dah habis matrics *big clap*  haha alhamdulillah habis sudahh tungguu result je ni. Takut jugak kena repeat . Tak emboh den tak emboh haha . Haisyyy currently miss everything dekat matrics . Almost everything act. Kalau malam gini still lagi bergelak sakan dengan roommate tgk movie ke bercerita ke study ke *you got me . takde study kbaii* kalau ada problem haha menangis je laa depan dema semua dah takde rasa malu suma rasa lega je hee . sumpah sayang semuanyaa . Classmates aku pun jugak aku rindu gila babs! :'D . Classmate paling awesome gilaaaaaaaaaa. No one can replace them. NO ONE! 

Stop laa kot cerita pasai KMNS . So how's my holiday ? nyahahaha entahlaa ada yang best ada yang tak blerghhh . Tak tau nak kerja ke tak but I have to find a job kalau tak acano nak dapat duit dengan nafsu nak hangout bagai kannn . so nak taknak kena cari kerja . ehh DAPATKAN kerja sebenarnyaaa. I hope dapat laa kerja yang gaji okay nak cuti pun okayyy tak laa menyeksa den nanti ahhaa . yeahh aku tak pernah kerja sebelum ni so I don't have any experience laa pun. Kena ada kawan kalau nak kerja ni tapi... semua dah cari kerja -.- siooooot! 

Okay laa takde apa dah kot ahhahaha post paling pendeks doeeee pastu bosan kan kan ahh persetankan semua itu . takdak mood act . tapi saje nak update kesian blog ni macam terabai sangat . k chiow byeee :8)